The Vision

This tree was hit by lightning in the top the electric shock burned it all the way to the core of the tree.  It was never going to be the same and it needed to be removed as it was unsafe to be left to just fall from the change it experienced.

When I turned 50 something similar happened to me. I had the house with the picket fence, the dog,  and the security, but I was terribly unsatisfied with the status quo.  I would see and hear about the suffering everyday and didn't feel satisfied to just go to work and end the day with my traditional glass of red wine sharing about the same stuff just a new day. Trust me I have nothing against a good glass of wine, in fact I am enjoying some right now, its just drinking out of boredom doesn't seem like the way to spend my life.   I still had vitality, curiosity, and love.

I decided to take a long train trip and started walking everywhere. That trip changed me and saved me from the place I was stuck in emotionally(bored) and physically(diabetic).  My tree was hit by lightning and all of my upper branches were removed, leaving only the important parts, the roots.  My roots screamed for a renewal of adventure, a renewal of hope and a renewal of health.  I had the wonderful opportunity during that trip to reconnect with old friends that I had lost contact with while raising my family. I learned something about myself or perhaps it wasn't something new, more like a reminder of who I have always been.

Returning home this brought a big change in my marriage. My husband of over 20 years really had to do some soul searching with me and decide if he wanted to be with this wife who wanted something different than he had ever realized.  He came into my life mid-stream and helped raise my children after a particularly difficult breakup with my first husband and the father of all of my children.  My needs as a mother of so many little ones were very different than what I wanted and needed now. He had to choose me, the raw and unpolished me or stay with all he has worked for with his sweat blood and tears. He still choose me and he has decided to come on this journey with me to do all the good that we can with all that we are in body and mind.